[ ... With all the times they've mentioned that they're important to one another, that much is true, but- ]
I don't think the way he means to me is the way I mean to him, though... [ Ugh. Feelings are gross. Especially yucky teenage ones! He doesn't want to bombard Pluma with his dumb, mushy feelings, but she's the one who agreed to listen, so... ] He makes me feel so safe and so secure. I feel like I can make hard choices if he's there by my side to encourage me. I want to protect him, and make him laugh, and teach him things, and listen to him sing, and talk about his passions, and listen to songs together, and... and I want him to smile. I want to make him smile. His smile is the brightest thing I've seen.
[ Despite all these cutesy confessions, Mizuki bristles more and more with each one. ]
And up until now, I had convinced myself that I could test the waters with him because he was so kind and understanding that I work differently from other people, that I... pushed it too far. I was bending something I didn't know could break.
[ Mizuki is a weird one. She's seen the way he clings to the Doctor, the way he can't stand not touching the people he's with, the way he depends on people to make decisions for him, the way he follows orders usually without fail... And she's always viewed this as a problem. Even the way he started working at Rhodes Island was worrying.
To hear him pour his heart into every syllable with such sweet, loving words, and to sound so absolutely sad despite being so smitten absolutely breaks La Pluma's heart. She knows he can be clingy, but she knows that he can get better, too. She believes in him. Ganbatte, Mizuki... ]
... Hm. [ Oh to be young and going through a first love. ]
I know you love very deeply. That is admirable. But you cannot let that fear you have consume you.
[ ... Where was she a couple of hours ago to tell him this? Maybe then, none of this would be happening. Or maybe it still would? To become prey to others is something Mizuki falls victim to far too much for his own good. Victim to his own fears shouldn't be any different. ]
If... If I... [ But he can do this. If he's going to make a choice... if he's allowed to make a decision, then... he wants to choose to be with Venti. ] If I write a letter, will... will you make sure it looks okay...?
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I don't think the way he means to me is the way I mean to him, though... [ Ugh. Feelings are gross. Especially yucky teenage ones! He doesn't want to bombard Pluma with his dumb, mushy feelings, but she's the one who agreed to listen, so... ] He makes me feel so safe and so secure. I feel like I can make hard choices if he's there by my side to encourage me. I want to protect him, and make him laugh, and teach him things, and listen to him sing, and talk about his passions, and listen to songs together, and... and I want him to smile. I want to make him smile. His smile is the brightest thing I've seen.
[ Despite all these cutesy confessions, Mizuki bristles more and more with each one. ]
And up until now, I had convinced myself that I could test the waters with him because he was so kind and understanding that I work differently from other people, that I... pushed it too far. I was bending something I didn't know could break.
[ ... ]
I'm scared he might just trash a letter.
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To hear him pour his heart into every syllable with such sweet, loving words, and to sound so absolutely sad despite being so smitten absolutely breaks La Pluma's heart. She knows he can be clingy, but she knows that he can get better, too. She believes in him. Ganbatte, Mizuki... ]
... Hm. [ Oh to be young and going through a first love. ]
I know you love very deeply. That is admirable. But you cannot let that fear you have consume you.
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If... If I... [ But he can do this. If he's going to make a choice... if he's allowed to make a decision, then... he wants to choose to be with Venti. ] If I write a letter, will... will you make sure it looks okay...?
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[ She even initiates a hug! Chin up, little jellyfish. ]